a left behind I remember what felt like every second of that night with you, tonight. From that moment when I saw you walking across the parking lot, dropping my purse, Lamartine PA wife swapping nude mature chat and running into your arms. It was and will always be a moment I will never forget. I won't forget how you held me and lifted me up. We were xxx That moment couldn't have been more perfect. I thought about what you wore, your hair, your height. I remember it, the same way that for the longest time, I could remember every day we spentlooking for people meet together, Mobile hot grannies second by second. The times with you when I couldn't breathe because you stole my breathe and no matter how hard I TRIED I just couldn't catch it. I miss the fantasy. Because the reality and what transpired after all the amazing was drowned out, was sickening and enough to make anyone's curl. I hate you but only because I love you. And I hope xxx day to find a more deserving love. I am not languishing so maybe it was never love at all. And our actions as it ended were filled with a lack of self control and disgust. Yet it doesn't stop the daily thoughts of you. Missing you. Yearning for you. Desiring you. Your presence. Your vocabulary. You, I miss you. But this will fade. The same as it has for the others before you that I loved so much as well. . A part of my mind is wanting to search for more about us. And the other half is too tired to such a beautiful disaster, yet again. Yes this is for you M.D.D. I don't want you to contact me. I just need you to know, although it will probably never make a difference. But I had to say it.