contemporary i still count the time that we have been friends. i still write bad poems. it's winter now, and i've started having flashbacks of my old snowy travels to your room. how i would run from the metro to your door and rip off my jacket and finally feel warmth and jump on you smooch your face get drunk watch weird shit on the internet, and awkwardly fuck you. i think i am a tragic romantic in denial. i only started telling you i love you after our downfall. our second downfall. an old friend told me once not to break your heart. it never crossed my mind, i didn't think i ever had that kind of power, horny old ladies searching dating site i still don't think i did. i don't know. we never talked about feelings. i think thats why i love you. i wish i could explain to you why i keep disappearing. the first time, someone asked me to be their girlfriend. i was so fucking high when he asked me. he kept me so fucking high our whole relationshit. i told him i loved my ex girlfriend and i travelled hours to go see her when he told me i couldn't. that was the end of that. she had a new girlfriend. she didn't want me anymore. but it was always her, since i was x . i came back to you. how could i not. i feel empty when you're not in my life. i guess it's not fair but i don't know how else to live. i can never settle down. last january, i wanted to live dangerously. my life had become overly mundane so i made myself fall in lust with my best friends fresh ex boyfriend. it didn't last long. i kissed him once. it caused a lot of drama. it was a mistake, and it was then that our second falling out begun. it has been a year. in that time i have run into you in the most unexpected of places. i think you cried once. i went home with x strange men and a high friend that night. then i saw you in beaudry and it was surreal and was on the TV and you sat with me and i wanted to touch your leg so badly, i told you i love you and i got on the train. i got back together with my girlfriend, in march i think. it was pure bliss forfree adult friends 95762 awhile, looking Fort Worth Texas or more i waited years for her. now i can't even look at her. i go days without sending her a single text. i'm a mess. i keep trying to see you now but it doesn't seem to ever work out. i don't know what it will be like. i'm but i love you so i have to try.